salam maal hijrah

salam maal hijrah to all my Muslims friends..not forgetting, a very happy new year t0o..Muharram has arrived, marking the beginning of the new hijrah year, 1427. i pray that the spirit and the strength of the ukhuwwah, the sacrifices by both the Muhajirin and the Ansar back in the times of the Prophet somehow inspire and motivate us.

somehow, this year i felt somehow, rather emotional i'd say, greeting Muharram. i have to admit that i have never really felt strongly the presence of Muharram and its 'arrival' in the past years (except of course, my ummi will remind me to perform the solat hajat and doa to seek Allah's blessings for the new year and all that..yeah2..i know..buruk perangai..terukkan me? huhu..) i guess all this new feelings are part of growing up, and definitely self-actualization! (yes, i think so uhuh! well, at least i hope so lah) alasssan..weak justification eh..(scary weih not knowing the reasons of ur feelings. i hate not being in control of myself..) *groan..* drama queen's at it again..

ehnihow, ehniways..ape2 pun, i have a feeling that this year will be different. i want this year to be different!to me, new year's like, a new chance, a new opportunity that Allah grants, as a ni'mah for us.. i mean, it's pretty much the same like waking up to a new day. not everyone gets to live to see and 'meet' tomorrow. being healthy and all. being a Muslim, with iman,islam, taqwa and all.. and so i believe that one must make the most out of the chance to live! to be able to breathe in the air of Mesia (tho polluted haih..); to be able to meet n hug ur frens; to be able to observe and perform ur obligations to God, to other people; to pray for urself and others; to be able to....yeah, u get the idea..

point being; count ur blessings. make the most out of life. we were created not for nothing..Allah's commands and orders are to be our priority. the life that we are living, the air that we breathe, the families and friends that we have; they all belong to Allah and one day, when our time comes, we'll have to return it all back to Him. in fact, there are already things that once we had, once we called our own; are not with us anymore..
(oh well, it never was ours to keep kan..)

i remember, about 5 years ago, an ustaz of mine, discussing on this very same issue, said that man are by nature forgetful. i dun mean man as in gender-wise. i meant man; mankind.

anyways, yeah, he said that we tend to forget that everything that we have today is not ours at all. it does not belong to us. it's all temporary belongings that God lends, borrowed to us..and Allah can take them away anytime, anywhere. at times when we wud expect or least expect Him to do so. like, when one of our family members passes away, we'll never see him/her on Earth again. when our pet dies, we lose a pet to care and to love. when u loses a friend over a fight or a 'growing-up phase of life'; ur friendship is a no more. how very true is all that? and one example that he gave me that made me see all so clear was that he said,
" another example; before, ryhn never had to visit the optician, never had to wear specs; but now she does. God took away the clear eyesight that He once gave her. and now, ryhn has to wear specs as an aid to better, clearer eyesight."

how very true was that. i never saw things that way. that my good eyesight was taken away by God. in fact he even said that people who had to wear specs are among those 'kurang upaya'..and for few years after that class, everytime isi borang OMR exam tuh, i'd always ask myself, or the teachers and even my mom, as to which 'kekurangan' shud i tick haha..i really did..kan ada the option "rabun mata" tuh..once i really did fill in the circle tuh..haha..naseb test biase2 kat skola..kalau sampai pmr or spm pon i buat camtuh..tak ke kene gelakkan ngan invigilator huhu.. loser sungguh..haish..

oh well..so, to a better year, a better life; as a Muslim; may this year there'll be many more opportunities for me that'll give me the chance to contribute to Islam..in anyways, any kinds..i need all the chances i cud get to topup, cover up, fill in all the 'lacunas' (ngeh3), the gaps and the holes yg buruk dlm my book of amal due to my ever so banyak sins and bad deeds..i hope to improve myself and try to perfect all my ibadah..and every other personal stuff that i so know x necessary for me to ramble here hehe..

but i really seriously wanna feel and appreciate the spirit of the Muhajirin and the Ansar during the Hijrah period tau..and i know that wudnt be very much possible until i really understand and know well the seerah..(hmm..teringat blaja seerah kat skola dulu..) ni nak kene baca balik fiqh seerah..btw, there’s this one malay nasheed that i have liked for so so so long but my br0dah cannot find me the song!! i heard it on IKIM (of kos la kan..) banyak2 group nasyid yg nyany nye....so it’s not in any cassette lah i suppose..one of those singles released for certain occassions..but i really really like the song! it touches my inner soul.in a way.somehow.i dunno what the title is but trusting my other siblings who all listen to IKIM n nothing else, it's called '1 Muharram'...but basically, the message is all about the event of Hijrah and going back in time to feel and 'hayati' the true meaning of Hijrah..my favorite part of the song wud be the chorus..it goes like this..

"di sinilah ketabahan umat Islam di uji.
1 Muharram, detik bersejarah,
di masa umat telah berhijrah,
dari kota mekah ke kota madinah,
tinggal segala harta keluarga,
sahabat handai dan yang tercinta"

see..hear..feel their sacrifices. their strength was their aqidah. the ever so firm aqidah, iman n taqwa . and their love and loyalty to Allah and Islam..and where do we ( where do I) stand? may by comparing ourselves to them and all the other Muslims who have really made real sacrifices will help us to be a better muslim..not only soleh, but musleh..(musti Musleh! heh..my mom really stresses like, a lot on this)

oh well..here i also wanna share some 'salam maal hijrah' wishes that i received from my dear friends. they have prayed for me and their prayers are my inspiration. i pray and hope that i will live up to their prayers.. I pray for friends that will always remind me of God, of our obligations towards Him, His deen and all His other creations, and who’ll always remind me and pull me back on ground when I start straying (heh..bak kate maz)…

"i pray that this year will not be short of His blessings and grace. make this life a worthy one for we live it in the honor of Allah and Islam."

“my prayers for you; that u have heart that never hardens, a temper that never rises, a touch that never hurts and love that never fails..”

"may u be tough when u feel ur at a lost; may u be happy when victory is urs to claim; and may u stay humble with every grace u gain..may the new year see u complete ur aims"

"may we lose not our direction in life, our goals, hopes and dreams, and our love for heaven and earth and everything in between"

“oh Allah, touch the hearts of those I care for. Keep them safe, remind them always of Your great love and bless them”

my wishes n prayers for myself and for all my frens;

“may our past sins be forgiven, may our iman, taqwa and amal increases. may Allah sets firm and devote our hearts for Him and His deen only; and grant us the ni'mah of Iman and Islam for always and let us die not without it..may all our good deeds be accepted and may He grant us sincerity in our hearts, accepts and make all our efforts a source of welfare for Islam.."

God bleSs you all and very happy new year...Be proud ur a Muslim!! Be proud of Islam!


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btw, m in college already huhu..all alone..orang sume manede balik awal2..okeh..ye, ade lah orang kat kolej nih..but the fact that i actually balik awal SEBAB nak buat keje and not to meet up with frens, or for any other social engagements; that is s.a.d..huhu.. oh well..look on the bright side of things!! i'll at least start early on trying to adapt n adjust myself back to campus life! huhu..not working..(have to be more n more positive!!) plus, maz's back alredi too..(ryte now she's out with her schoolfrens for dinner jap..me missus u alredi loh!!!)

*gone to 'sentuh' my MLS book..got test this friday..*

owh!! *positive attitude back!!* got 2nd MABIT this friday!! cant wait. i cant really remember lah if i went to the 1st one..hmm..well, if i did, i cant afford to miss the 2nd one. and even if i missed the 1st one, the more reason i cant miss this friday prog...tru dat?? eheh..til laytah!!