frustrated..bey0nd w0rds..

the things that i do when i'm under such an emotional stress are kinda crazy and plain at the same time. when i'm angry, frustrated, stressed, sad, upset, feeling down n low, and all that kinda negative emotions and feelings, these are the things that i came to learn them to be 'healing' for me..

1>clean and wash MY toilet. MY bathroom. notice the capitalized words ok. MY= i call my own, full ownership. and that was sumthing i enjoyed sumtime ago. bcoz now,

a) i stay in college where students dun get a toilet each that they can call their own,

b)my sister has now taken over the full authority over the used-to-be-my-chamber a.k.a bedroom.and with that also goes the used-to-be-under-my-care-and-loved-bathroom..(i dun think i'll ever not get all emo n dramatic when it comes to talking bout me losing full ownership over that room..u'll just have to bear with me eh..)

and so, this is not practical anymore..and i really do miss this 'practice'

2>i definitely enjoy this the best. washing dishes..i really find it 'refreshing'..sumhow..

3>eat ice cream. this is a bonus..



and now, i'm feeling so much better after i spent exactly 13minutes at the sink, washing dishes and later, indulged myself in ice-creams..(straight from the tub!)



my frustration was, and is beyond worDS!!!!! i was sooo angry that i felt like i was about to burst! i was so angry n tensed n stressed, that i was close to tears, but i cudn't cry! ergh!!! i just wanted to shout n scream out loud..which when i was about to start, baby nanim woke up being shocked at such sound *sheepish grin*



u see, i was just handed a lapPie toPpie..my dad has (finally) given me his permisSion to take it with me back to college..so i began saving n transferring stuff to it lah... (hmm..which reminds me, i still haven't found a name for it..for now it's 'lapPie', the same name i gave to nad's when she x find any name yet keh2..)
anyways, so yeah, later, sumhow, my brother taught me, or rather, demonstrated to me the way to take out the battery (i dun remember if there was any reason for it..hmm..) so when we turned on the lapPie on, the desktop was clear! there was only the basic whatever-they-are on display! all the documents! all the pictures..all MY stuff..they're all gone..huhu...all gone...my brother was himself very much as surprised as i was (kurang sket la..i was all frantic being the drama queen *huff*) it was like, it has never happened b4 , so he says lah..hmm..oh well..lets stay positive..lets say the fave phrase.. "i'm shur there'll be sumthing positive out of this!"..*the tone must be full of enthusiasm and full spirit!* bring it on!!..sigh..it doesn't seem to be working this time around..only God can take away all this terrible devastating emotions....


*gone to get my mind of this mesS*


p/s: its been raining non stop here at home..i dunno if skudai je or the whole JB at large is 'drenched' with the downpour..it has been raining non stop since the 1st minute i reached home! i cant go out at all..i was planning on paying Pura a visit since she's at home now..gowd i miss my matric-roomies..


oh, n the plan to visit my fren's lil sis at the hospital; i'm still waiting for my dad to safely reach home from BP...