..: day out with Ummi and the lil kiddies :..

today was, weird. u see, usually everyone will get tired of me always wanting to go out, spesifically me going, " i wanna go shop groc! what do we need??" but today, i got my mom stressed out trying to get me out of the house.

i somehow dozed off after watching Dora the Explorer (cute spanish gurl kid cartoon) and Sesame Street (devastated sbb missed out on Elmo) i teman baby nanim ok. well, my mom and bro n 12 year old sis was watching it too! *cover muke guilty* lol

nways..yeah, i dozed off then round 11 kot in the middle of me in my la-la land, i heard ummi's voice growing louder and louder and *poof* i was awake! turned out she was asking me to go out with her. surprisingly and shockingly to everyone in the house, i was like, "tanak la..nak gi mana..",
ummi went, "jom la..pegi renew ur license"
"alaa..esok la.tunggu zahid balik.."
"ok. kita pergi jusco la.."
"tanak...nak buat ape?" (Jusco's like 5mins drive away from chez moi yet i never get tired of that place. any other ordinary day la)
"groc jom. cepat la..pegi siap.."
"alaa..kene iron and get dress and all..huhu.."
"jom la..kate nak kuar harini..ummi dah cakap ngan abah dah umi nak kuar dgn anak2 pompuan umi.."
"sape ikut?"
"adik nak ikut!" (suara 9 year old boy menyampuk dr atas)
"cepat la..kita pegi time tak ramai org..ni pagi lagi..jap lg lunch hour ramai.susah dpt parking.."

and so sebab my mom beria sungguh..(pelik sungguh jugakla..biasanye i yg merengek2 paksa org bawak i jalan kuar. dapat a packet of apples pon bahagia dah!) i pon bangun, and out we went. me, syifa', ummi and baby nanim..and ofkos the one and only boy out with us, adik..sesat haha..

it was fun. i mean, other than the fact that my mom was on hol, meaning, not working, and we were practically throwing everything that caught our eyes into the trolley..shur me and my siblings had fun..stokin pun adik nak..apa deh..we raided the baby dept, obviously and spent time chosing abah's stuff. we got him a couple of kemeja.. basically, half of our trolley was all food-junk-stuff. yg kelakar nye, me n Adik was sumhow pelik'ly semanding for Mee Ruskee for lunch and so in goes Ruskee packets..bukan senang nak buy mee instant!

i raided the women dept, men dept, children's and all with ummi..tho time i ter'astray at the shoes/bags dept, ummi tiba2 takde dah with me *lol*

after sometime..ummi was hungry and it was already lunch time meaning abah will be coming home anytime soon and so we need to be home soon. so we paid for the stuff, (i meant, ummi paid..heh..shur ummi suruh rephrase that..)
before we left ummi offered secret recipe's..*hooray!!!* she's into cheez choc currently. few weeks ago she was into the Raspberry Cheesecake. we 'take away' abah his fave cake 'Choc Chip Walnut'. it has always been his choice when it comes to choosing cakes at Sec Rec. owh, yeah, other than Cappuccino Cheesecake. nways..yg kelakarnye..we stayed for sumtime at the parking lot in the car eating away some junkies and ofkos, melayaning baby nanim who was waaaay-too-clear excited with her newly-bought pair of baby-noisy-shoes..

before we headed home, i asked ummi to stop at the CD shops to get some..er..ehem..pirated CDs haha..illegal.i know. lol. i grabbed a buy 5 free 1. i got lotsa siblings k..diff likings so had to cater to all's pilihan..since Adik was with me, so he did most of the choosing la. too bad, i was looking for Chinese movies but kedai tu tak byk pilihan..new ones tadak except Election 2. pastu dah la tadi ada 2 guys in uniforms masuk kedai time i tgh pilih2 CD cetak rompak tuh. i dah cuak gak la but mantain je cool haha..pastu sat lagi akak kedai tu went, "Hi uncle.." i was like, hait, baik plak.." haha..rupa2nye, pakcik2 tu tukang check ticket kupon carpark jeh..*fiuh*

Ummi x minat sgt beli CD2 nih but then she was like, "ehm..AI nye CD xde ke? beli Da Vinci'S?" hahah..dari dulu dia nak watch that movie but tak kesempatan..we didnt even buy it time dia br kuar coz i wasnt really interestd in watching it..nways, so she was like, OMG ur spending soo much on some enertainment stuff yada..yada.. and i was like, "i tgh baik nih, i bought sbb adik sume mintak.." hehe..ala2 kakak yg baik la kan.. so began the 'u shud derma the money for the mangsa in Java and stuff..'

yes ummi..i hear u.thats y i didnt buy that white/purple chic-HOWT bag i dok try2 pose2 dgn tadi..and i didnt even mintak kat ummi to buy for me gak tau!!.hehe..hmm..hopefully mlm ni zahid balik dah. kalau tak sape nak angkut me to the Pelancaran Tabung tu..haih..leceh nye lesen takde..*groan*

owh btw, tomoro and lusa i have to ganti kak sakinah tutoring English bdak F1-3 kat pusat tuition in BBU..i dun even know how i said yes to kak kinah pon haha..i am soo bad at explaining ape lagi teaching..God save me tomoro..give me more patience la plg penting..*hee*

yesterday..today..and tomorrow?

yesterday..

• i was angry and frustrated with the fact that i cannot merajuk or marah lama2. i think that it is very unfair! to me! that the other person that i was supposed to be mad at/kecik hati with gets away easily sebab i jenis cepat cool!!! aaaarghh!!!*jerit frust*
• i ate some weird looks-like-those-used-for-ubat-cina mushrooms. real black, sangat keras and kene ummi rendam berjam2 nak bagi edible. tastes..well..edible.soupnya sedap so jalan je..
• it took me 4 hours and 20mins just to finish typing one mail sebab boleh la kaan semua orang tetiba jerit2, "nak guna Viao!", "nak gune PC!", "ada kerja penting!!kene siap esok!!" alasan!! tapi sebab alasan derang sume reasonable,kene give way huhu..tu br rebut ngan abah n amner..belum tambah zahid, zubai or adik..huwa huwa..abah..pleeez dong cepat2 hantar repair my Lappie..
• ummi was at home all day and not away at work! school cuti so she'll be at home.. *beaming smile and grinning widely coz ummi's at home..*
• i kept on asking ummi "zaed balik bila?", "syifa' balik bila?" they both went away camping in some forests. school prog. zahid kononnye jadi cook la utk bebudak skola..i have 6 loud and noisy-lot sis n bro altogether. just 2 away, mcm la kurg sangat u say? rasa okeh! well, on ething for shur, i have no sis to gado2, carik pasal with; and no zahid to sakat/kacau wahahaha
• i watched 'Just Like Heaven'..both Rs i like..
• talked to TASZ!!!!! It has been ages since the last time i got to meet her online!! tu pon kejap je coz i had to leave for dinner..haih..nape lah jarak Mesia ngan Yemen x mcm UTM n my house je? i hope dia kene kawen ngan org melayu and then kene pindah mesia haha..(oops..JGN sesape translate ape i ckp td to bahasa arab or english kasik Tas paham! mati i keh3..)
• talked to Hanyhany too!! sejak balik KL blm jumpe dia lagi..
• made lotsa phonecalls and got ideas for the TFT..kinda excited but at the same time kinda saspen gak la nak mula campaign 'P' for Palestine..God do bless our efforts and harapnye success hoping to create awareness in the society with regard to the issue of the Sacred Land..
• had lunch at M-Suites..the fish-fillet in Black Pepper Sauce nyummy sungguh..the coffee was strong banget. got me high later in the evening!
• i am picky when it comes to eating fish. yesterday, ummi cooked 'ikan...*tanye umi balik ape nama ikan tu* ha, ikan selar kuning yang besar punye.(not the baby ones yg kalau goreng bole kunyah je the whole ikan) JUST when i decided to not be picky, i HAD to have some freakin' small fish bone stuck pricking in my throat!! urgh..huhu..sakit weh..i was with all my might trying to cough out the bone tuh.."aaaaaaaaaaaarrrghkhhhh.." that's how i sounded like. pretty much la. i rase the whole neighbourhood heard me loud and clear. God forbid they would have thot some domestic violence was going on! nways, for more than 3 hours, i was swallowing cubes of watermelons.(hear me, C-U-B-E, in one piece,) god, does it hurt u ask? u think???? plus gallons of water. (apologies to my neighbours if smlm u peeps nye water x running) i was watching Gol&Gincu sambil menelan those tembikai cubes. i shur was seeing pink and red huhu..then, since it doesnt seem to work (the menelaning tembikai kiub dan bergallon water that is), i decided on trying out the petua given by major of frens i was talking to (note: tertelan tulang affects the throat not the hand; hence, i could type but not talk..) which was to 'gumpal2 nasi and swallow besar2' and ey, walla it worked! tho i had to telan dekat 20 botol air la kan in order to be able to sleep well*obvious exaggeration there*sakit okeh! alhmd, when i woke up, i was all okay..thank you Allah. for allowing me to live yet another day. it actually crossed my mind that i myte die in my sleep sebab tercekik nasi yg i telan segumpal tuh tau!

today..

• i woke up with a tummy ache..(thnx to the swallowing job last night!!!)
• pricking-in-my-throat fish bone's gone..
• got an idea what to give ummi n abah for their 21st Wedding Anniversary this july!! ofkos, handmades are the most sentimental gifts ever..so gotta start early!! err..but the bahan2..hmm..adik2ku sayang.mari tong2 beli bahan..haha..
• talked to nusayba shrhm!!! lame banget since the last time chatted with her!last time..before i left for UK kot..see?that long!
• syifa' balik..
• read JG's 'The Client'.. kagum banget sama Mark Sway the 12 year ol' boy..so young, courageous n brave..
• ate too much of apples. ummi bought some N.Z big red crunchy apples. sedap weh..
• spent half the day layan baby nanim..golek2 atas lantai, ajar dia cakap "i want biscuit"..she only managed once of "i wan" and sbb panjang sgt, she just jerit "kut!kut!" when she wants more biscuits..we read The Stars together too. okay, i did the reading and she did the pulling-the-papers-away-from my lap, konon nak baca jugak la kan..
• planned out Training For Trainers prog today..need responds and more updates from kak farhana n kak ainal tho..did the drafts sudah..
• usaha talking my parents into letting me and my bro (will talk him into joining me once he's back home esok) drive the car all the way to KL for KONSIS..puhleeeez God, lembutkan hati ummi n abah so that they'll gimme the green light..pleeeeeze...
• thinking of calling up a salon for a date with the hairdresser. but fat chance tho coz ummi frowned and went, " ape lagi nak dibuat dgn rambut tu.." *grin*
• learnt ..*counting* 35 more french sentences today, and revised my mandarin. *feeling good*
• pampered my skin. gave it a treat of some facial scrubbing and masking; end the 'session' with sesi 'raspberry-ice cream indulgence!!'
• increasing number of death following the disaster in Java...sedih tgk berita..risau gak..esp when ummi said,"risau jugak..last year, before Tsunami there was a gempa bumi skala 6pointer gak.." na'uzubillahiminzalik..God save us all from any malapetaka..
• thought of the 'our' lil baby of SRC..ape kabar ye semua orang..so quiet ah..hmm..i felt bad coz i failed to set up a meeting with sir ariff for us all before hols haritu..i really felt bad..like i failed..duh..mmg ye pon..haih..thing is, i mailed him so many time, but there was constant mailing-failure..bounced ke? but the way i see it,mcm email is one of the imp medium of communication since he has no mobile numbers..*malu tutup muka*

tomorrow..

• going out with Ummi. she's insisting on me going to BR to get my license renewed..hehe..lesen hidup, tak reti letak2 kunci kereta..lesen mati, tak reti2 nak hidupkan..huhu..leceh la..dia nak gambar la ..nak salinan IC la.huhu.like Abyd says, "skrg xde lesen,mcm handicap la ek." tp krang sket la sbb Zahid ada.."Zahid, drive me here..drive me there...we have to pick my fren.." heh..jalan je..tp for the past few days dia tadak huhu..away in some Tmn Negara, rifting and swimming n trekking and yeah, cooking hwahwa..cepat la balik!!!
• will insist and make abah take my Lappie to his technician and get Lappie fixed!! i can wait no longer!
• going to kedai kain to buy some fabric for my new bed sheets. am gonna make myself new bedding stuff. mesin jahit!here i come =D. planning on cross-stitching my own patterns and name on my pillows for sem depan.kan dapat bilik baru..hahaha..gedik tak??dah la bilik prolly warna pink! *blergh* God please gimme a purple room and not the pink one!!
• go to Pelancaran Tabung Mangsa Gempa Bumi Jogjakarta di Pej.Jim..there are people who needs help.if we cant go there to help them, lets just donate some cash..
• *note to self: ryhn, there are people who need ur cash more than u need that pair of boots and 'the' bag uv got ur eyes on..*
• gotta finish the drafts for TFT. get a date! (not a date,as in a guy-date; but a date literally, as in u know, tarikh, for TFT.asap! u need to get venue booked! inform speakers.move faster ryhn!!)
• check on the barang2 jualan yg dah ada dgn makcik shidah..contact mujahid! buat check list!!
• is a new day...

this minute,i need to stop. plus tard!! laytah!!

i'm a believer..

(gambar tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg mati. sekadar hiasan.

i was actully loving the clouds.macam kapas.!)

positive attitude back. i am a believer and i'll say that over and over again!

no matter what happens, we as Muslims must have full faith, trust and belief in Allah for only He knows what's best for us. when sumthing happens and it puts us in a position that we dun like, no matter what, just think positive and believe that there is always a wisdom (if not wisdomS) behind everythng that happens. things happen for a reason!! *takbeer*

i was sad with the decision that i had to make this morning. thought hard, decided, and let go..(dengan hati yang berat..) i guess i just can't save everyone, and i just can't make everyone happy eh? but then, now, less than 6 hours, i dah nampak dah the bright side of my decision-yg-quite-mengecewakan..and so now i'm relieved and glad. content too.

well, they do say that
"tak semua yang kita nak tu, baik untuk kita;

and tak sume yg kite taknak tu, tak baik untuk kite.."

khusnuzon pada Allah. harus yakin deh!
Allahu a'lam..

p/s: once sumone actually tried keeping a record of how long it takes for my mood to change.

pecah rekod, 45 seconds from being the saddest -close-to-tears gurl to a hyped-excited-fresh gurl.

truth is, life's just full of surprises and excitement!

"life's like a box of chocolate". nyum..*grin*

i da cakap i ni garang orangnye..

for a starter, it's 1 AM and my bro's out there sumwhere, taking my so-much-younger bro out playing futsal; sumwhere more than 30mins drive away from home and they're not back yet!! unfair! and my parents are now sleeping! why are they not all bising2 "mane ni tak balik2 lagi?" why are they not on the phone calling him up asking "where are you now? it's late night. u better start heading home now"

if it was me, out with my gurls, or out for a meeting or a program or whatever, the minute the clock screams 10pm, i know that i should be expecting a phone call. at least, kene soal "where are u now?" "what time u nak balik?" especially if i left the home with just a "i'll be back soon!" or "don't wait for me" (although i know that i would come home to either one of my parents opening the door for me.)

*roll eyes* *duh*

ofkos i know why. because i'm a young lady. and because i'm their princess! *duh again..* that's soo obvious..

ohkay, so i was just melepaskan geram, ranting out/ venting out my anger, frustration, whatever atas tu! *scream out loud*

i am sooo angry at myself. i am disappointed and at dismay. with myself. i blame no one.i feel sooo stupit. no. that's soooohhohhoho not the word.

i know i'm supposed to be all cool and relaxed after a week of holiday with Su. that, i shur had a GREAT time. fab okay. this has nothing to do with my one week hols. in fact, today (or rather, yesterday for at this minute, it's already a new day) was a good day. started the day with a picnic at the fishermen port that i really wanted to go to (for what reasons, i have no idea). maktok made us her ever so famous nasi lemak. we drove to Parit Salam. her sister (my Tok Andak) and her mom ( my great grandmother, Nek Siti). i really had fun. the warga emas in my fam are real cool people. i love chatting with them over a meal or just any hot drinks or just baring2 depan tv; anything, anytime (watched Seagal's Exit Wound with Mak Tok at midnight ystrday whahaha). great fun. (more details later)

back to the main story, i reached JB in time for the campaign's meeting. and that actually got me feeling good. i felt like a superwoman. i mean, it was like, i had to reach JB by 'Asr coz i have to be in a meeting by that time. turun je bas, my bro came to pick me and drive me to the meeting place. and the fact that the meeting was to me, one of the affective and productive meetings ever. okay, so i was kinda disappointed that number of people who was present was just, hmm..5. wait.6. 3 guys/3ladies. however, i was pleased because, everyone was involved with the discussion. i mean, kalau meeting besar, people are just soo tak focused and gowd, that just annoys the *tuut* out of me!

point being, i am tired out, a lil emo, but not because i'm tired from my trip or the hectic day i had today (yesterday!) or because of the meeting.

lets just say, i stumbled across something online that took me by surprise about someone. someone that i thought i should prolly give a chance. someone who i thought deserves to be given the chance. i'm talking about giving chances to a friend. the feeling is not of betrayal but i suppose, just a meer disappointment. that got me staring at the laptop's screen, scrolling down every single page that i could open up like mad, swallowing up, gulping in everything that i could. for allowing such to happen; i am really, really am losing it.(whatever that meant, whatever that was supposed to mean, who cares?!?),
owh why did i even bother?
*aargh..!!*
why did i even care to bother?
a total waste of time. final word, i thank you, you!
*xtreme sarcasm*
no room for positive attitude/mind/watever, at this mo

How Abnormal Are You?

You Are 36% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul. (wahaha..thnx for the reminder) You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. (lol.no comment here. but it dun mean i agree oraitty??) You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. (*roll eyes*) You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.(ofkos deh!) You are at high risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is very likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.(sob3..i know..OCD. i found out some many months ago..takleh tolong la part nih..yes, i do bring my own hand wash/cream around..)

a woman's place is in the kitchen..aye?

the other day, my brother Amner (gabungan abang munir. Adek started calling him that when he was pelat and we terikut..sampai skarang haha), well yeah, he was craving for this caramel pudding that maktok brought back for us from Cairo. since it was a pudding-instant, it took me just a few mins. tapi saspen gak ape rase n whether it'll turn out fine or not coz it uses milk..so, u know, when milk is involved, u just have to be extra careful..so yeah, here's the result:

it was nyummy..glad got my bro happy..EHNIWAYS...what happened today? well they say that when ur angry or emotional, cooking is not to be on the list because it will effect the food. i believed in that too. til today. i was down, i was angry, i was stressed, i was sad, and i went into the kitchen. there was not much dishes to wash so i got bored. started cleaning the kitchen, but was in no mood to scrub. so i was like, heck, my usual 'good-way-to-vent-out-emo' wasn't working..then my eyes stopped at the fridge, the stove, the pans, and i got moving. we haven't done this week's groceries yet, so there wasn't much stuff but with ape yg ada...here's what i came up with..

my own recipe!!!!! it's fettucini, potatoes (small chunks, that's why u can't see it) and cheddar (a substitute for parmesan that i couldn't find) and my home-made pasta sauce!! yippee!!no more reliance on the sauce-in-jars.. i have yet to name this recipe! i feel so satisfied and yes, kak alya, like u said, it's fulfilling. i am not ber'lagak'ing but it tasted great! (but a bit too pedas for my liking sbb ter'extra black pepper *hot*) in fact, i promised djah lunch at my place sumday soon for a plate of it *tee hee* let's wait for her testimonial on it..

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the pudding is the same pudding that i made the other day (the above) only here u get to see the caramel sauce coz kat atas tuh, the sauce was at the bottom of the pudding..good lunch i had..

but then after that, i got restless..so since it was near hometime for my family who goes to work, school etc, (abah n zahid went to uia pj) I decided to prep dinner.. but due to the lack of ingredients, i only managed to prepare 2 lauk jeh..here's the menu;

nasi putih+ sayur goreng+chicken curry

(sayur tadak gamba sebab tak sempat amek sudah kene bawak lari..nasi putih, alaa..same je kat memane u tgk..kalo xpenah tgk, gi memane restoran, tanye waiter, "nasi putihmane kak?" nengok la rupe dia cane..)

i think today is a potato day lah..

all the dish ada potatoes..can u see it in the curry?? my brothers complimented on it.( i love Adek! i love it when he critics or comments on my outfits, my cooking, anything. he's only 8 but i trust his views and opinions. kiut Adek!!) habis je sume i nengok..(didnt eat any. now, its not bcoz i had it poisoned or letak extra super-hot chilli *lol* just malas nak makan. had the fett. earlier anyways..)

anyways, at least i'm feeling a lot lot lot better..

Thank You Allah for the inspiration....

p/s: yes Lub, venting out anger by whipping some batter is cool..at least we tak lepas kat orang or belasah living things kan?kan?

it hurts to cry..

especially when ur crying alone..

sesi Forum

Iman ELC, Tmn Sri Putri, 12 May 2006



amar (speaking for matrics), taufiq (for UTM),
a pakcik (moderator, blkg bunga penyibuk tuh) and moa ( for IIU)



sharing my experience and views as a university student to the gen7 boys and gurls..


dengar..dengar..jgn tak dengar..

basically we (Amar, Taufiq and moa) had to share with the adik2 on our experiences being a university student. on campus life. on the continuation of tarbiyyah in campus. culture shock, mental preparation and all that lah..altho the forum was supposed to get the adik2 thinking, but i realized that talking my experiences out got me thinking more, for myself. it was like, i was relflecting back on my previous years of life, dari kat matric til the last sem i spent in IIU. it got me thinking, have i carried out my obligations well? have i made the most out of life? have i utilized the hours that God gave me to the maximum? or have i just lived life..just like that..living only for myself..what have i contributed to the Muslim society? what about my life plans and goals? they say make the most out of ur life being a university student, grab all the opportunities that could ever cross ur path and enjoy student life..how is it really ye..

but one thing for shur that i stressed to the adik2 was, to always, always, think positive, have full faith and belief in Allah and khusnuzon with Him.. think positive..it'll get u far. at least it'll save u for the day.. =D..laytah

*teringat Opah pesan dulu; ur life plans and goals must always be 'lillah' ..for everything, it must be lillah and must always be for the good of the Muslim society*

handsome couple from Islamabad

Anjum and Shaniaz. all the way from Islamabad. they came over to our place for a hi-tea. Anjum's my dad's PhD student and since he's done with his study, they're going back to Pakistan. my dad and Anjum are great friends. i think it's especially because they share common interest in food. u see, Anjum's wife cooks for us several times. they invite us for meals and send us foods at times. of course, the dishes are all of Pakistani's or Indian's. since we used to stay in a Pakistani/Indian community back in England, we love their food. (more like used to it). so, whenever we want to cater food for occasions or when we invite people to come over and eat, my dad'll just order from Shaniaz. so, before they leave, we invited them over for a meal at our place. my mom wanted to serve them malay traditional food. we searched for sate but was too late to order for some. after some pusing2 and calling2 orang, we got roti jala and murtabak..and honeydews for the fruits...traditional enough?


and best thing is that, i found out that Shaniaz is actually a fashion designer!!! she has 2 boutiques already back in Pakistan! supercool..heh, had a great chat with her bout beads, clothes, fabrics n stuff. and plus, she also owns a kindergarten. superb0. she told us about her wedding and her culture. my gawd, the wedding is soooo expensive. especially for the woman's side. her's went on for 5days. her family had to prepare 38 dresses to give to the in-laws where as the man just had to give 8. unfair! and plus, the bride's side gave away furnitures, electrical appliances and a whole furnished house to the groom's family. what's that u ask me? i have no idea...and she told us that when she was wearing the ..umm..err..(ok, i forgot what it's called) the wedding costume for the bride, she said that the red cloth that she wears on her head was like sooohhooo heavy that she couldn't bother to move. the way she shook her head geleng2 and sighing describing her wedding costume, i thought "what a torture to just look beautiful on her wedding" heh..but she said, she prefers malaysian's wedding anytime.. keh3..ye la, 5days, sape larat!

before they left, of course, my dad asked for recipes of the dishes that they give us. my dad's fave has always been their nasi beryani. Shaniaz said that it's quite difficult to make. at first, my dad was still willing to give it a try but when Shaniaz told abah that it would take him 14 hours to prepare the spices only, it was a 'never mind' from him.( a few days ago we catered 2 big periuk of the Beryani. so when we heard of the 14 hours preparation, musti my parents macam.."mak aih..kesiannye Shaniaz..") it's nyummy and real spicy i tell you. a real Indian dish. i guess, we'll be seeing abah busy in the kitchen on his 1st try-out making a Nasi Pilau. can't wait!

Acheh Lon Sayang

*stretch* its been quite a while. the program with the kids from the Darul Ayytam Orphanage Home, Acheh is over. the Hi-tea was a success alhamdulillah..spent a morning with them 5 girls aged between 9-12 came with 2 pengiring. a picnic was organized at the Hutan Bandar. it was beautiful..the hutan that is. the kids enjoyed themselves. they had all the attention they need. they had all the fun they know and we know they'll never get once they get back in Acheh. it was quite an experience being part of the whole program. i mean, i yang i tak join the team pergi Acheh pon sebak je when tgk the video clips, the multimedia presentations and just looking at the gurls laughing and running around got me fighting back tears.

i followed my brother to BBU mosque last Saturday night when he had to give a talk on his experience in Acheh. He made the multi-media presentation and he talked in front of the public who was in the mosque. i was..stunned..from the first second he opened his mouth when he said salaam..i was..kinda overwhelmed. my brother has grown up into such a fine 18 year old guy.. i never ever pictured him, being always the quiet, laid back boy; would ever work his bones out of their place to get himself to Acheh, and made it back, changed sooo much..and there he was, 2 nights in a row talking to the public at large sharing with them his experience staying one month in Acheh, the land that was destroyed by Tsunami. in fact, when my dad told me the day before that Zahid was asked to give a talk, i was like, "ye ke?tipu!". bukannye pandang rendah but i tak penah tgk dia cakap in public! i was SOOO proud of him. i had to admit that i was so overwhelmed that i was fighting back my tears all the while he was talking kat depan tuh..

Road To Acheh (R2A) has brought out the best in my brother and his friends. the ties that binds them, the ukhuwah between them, it was beyond reasonable doubt. they have sent 4months together. they went thru the hard times and teh happy times together, in Malaysia and in Acheh. they have successfully surprised everyone with the abilities, their talents and their hardwork. Hi-Tea was the kemuncak of teh whole R2A prog. contoh la kan, selame i kenal Iqbal as my Zahid's friend, i never ever could ever imagine that he would be the Pengarah of the Hi-Tea prog in Hyatt (but he's still the same old shy Iqbal lah tee hee), it was a major success and if i could, i would give a pat on his back.

R2A 2005 is over.they plan on going back to Acheh in 3 years time. yesterday was the penutup of the whole R2A prog. actually, it was a prog Qiam so it was a sleepover prog. i was invited to join them on Thurday night bcoz there was a forum on campus life and the continuation of tarbiyyah; and i was called to be one of the panels. i had to speak for IIu. but then, when i got there, it turned out that the forum was postponed to the next morning due to some reasonable reasons BUT i was not told. in fact, not my dad, not any of the other panels was told. nvm. abah offered to drive me back home since he was leaving to pick my other brother from school-meeting, but i chose to stay. later i understood and believed that i was chosen and invited to be with them in that program.

u know when in certain situations, u had to join a prog, u had to participate in a prog, u had to attend an event, occasion, a whatever, when u dun really intend to go meB bcoz the program wasn't even for you, but u just find urself there, it's all about thinking positive. in fact, it's all about believing that there's a reason and wisdom behind everything. what i have learnt to believe in is that, sometimes, you are 'there' because you are chosen by God. you are the chosen one and the ones that weren't there with you were the unchosen ones. i'm not saying that i'm better off than others but what i'm saying is that God knows what's best for everyone. some people intended to go, and prolly was already on their way, but God planned it that he/she was not to go, so sumthing else came up in their way or they just forgot about it, or they just changed their mind. it crossed my mind how some people wouldn't attend a program because they don't have any friends to go with them, because they don't wanna go alone, and i think that is such an irrelevant, unreasonable excuse! (ohkay, sudah sedikit keluar tajuk..) ur letting go of an opportunity that was prolly meant only for u!

anyways, back to my story on the closing prog..so i decided to stay. and shur i'm glad i did. other than the adik2 R2A (batch Zahid. my juniors actually semua tu) there was only me and makcik Haseenah. ofcourse, makcik Lainy came as she was the speaker for the slot that night. Makcik Lainy mmg rawk! she's sooo funny and she shur has a lot to say. best la dia bagi talk.. it was also a bonding session for me and the adik2 junior. which was good because the last time i had the chance to talk with each and everyone of them was like, umm..never.. that night, i talked to all of them. at the back of my mind, i silently hope that i was accepted not only as a kak ryhn but also as a representative of PaLS that night (for the akhawat la).. ihsan and umayr was there too so i guess the guys had their share of PaLS reps (the president lagi tuh)..after all, i remembered some gurls actually asked,
"kak ryhn, nape R2A nih, akak alumni tak join? abang2 jeh. yg pegi Acheh pun yg abang2 je.."
hmm..it was quite a tough task having to come up with an answer to their question there..

in fact, that night i felt pretty bad that i didn't sleep over with them. rase guilty coz i got them excited believing that i would stay with them over the night.kesian la plak jugak kat makcik haseenah sorg2..i shud have stayed..but i wasnt prepared and plus, i had to drive back my mom's car coz Zahid took my dad's with him..had to leave one car at home...oh..haih..gtg now.mom calling.i'll sambung later on the Saturday's prog..

Let's Get Back To Islam

Lets get back to Islam, before the sun goes down,
We never know when we'll be under the mound.

"I'll pray when I get older," That's what they say,
But we might not have even one more day!

Lets get back to Islam, before its too late,
"Aw man, can't I just delay it for another date?"

Times running out, our lives are almost done,
"But brother, I'm too busy having fun."

Lets get back to Islam, Jahannam aint funny,
"Come on man, I'm to busy making money!"

The Quran sits on our shelves and there it picks up dust,
The longer we stay away from it, the more our hearts pick up rust

. Lets get back to Islam, before our lives are gone,
"Not right now, I'm too busy, can't you see I have the TV on!"

There's no time to waste, lets start it now,
Come on, for Allah can't you even bow?

Lets get back to Islam, this aint just a song,
"But brother, a few minutes in prayer, that's too long!"

"I'll go on hajj when I'm around fifty-five,"
Come on man, by then will you even be alive?

Lets get back to Islam, lets not waste another day,
"Aw Masood, leave me alone, I just wanna play."

Lets turn back to Allah before we turn to dust,
There's no delaying, bro this is a must!

Lets get back to Islam, for real, not just with our lips,
Oh Allah make us sincere, so we won't feel Jahannam's whips.

"I think I'll get pious when my hair turns gray."
Come on man, don't wait, we may die any day.

Lets get back to Islam, this aint just another rap,
Its a race to Jannah, and Islam's the only map.


*takbeer!*Allahu Akbar!!